Don't Know What I Was Afraid Of

So I haven't been the best in the world with following the Core plan. I've tried to be good, but I've fallen prey to several temptations along the way. And it's fear of what those tempations might have done that has kept me off the scale for several weeks.

So tonight, I'm working, and I went into the equipment room to get a blanket for one of my patients, and as soon as I opened the door, the scale was sitting there, staring me in the face and beckoning me to step on. So I did.

And I have lost 4.8 pounds.

Now, I know that I've eaten some bad things. Some WAY off program things. The thing is, I haven't really been eating a whole lot of everything else, so I'm guessing the good and bad and smaller amount of food intake just happened to balance the right way for me to lose some weight. I know that it had to be a total fluke, but I'm going with it and taking it as a sign that I can do this, but I definitely need to get back on track.

However, I'm scared for an entirely new reason now. Sunday, I'm leaving to go on vacation for the week, and we're going with a huge group of people. It's always a blur of restaurants and goodies passed around between hotel rooms, and it's going to be a HUGE temptation for me. Part of me feels that since I'm on vacation, I shouldn't really worry about it all. Another part of me says that if I use that vacation as an excuse to go off plan, I'll find one excuse after another until I'm well over 300 pounds. But the realist in me says that I will do the best I can to make good food decisions, but I'm not going to beat myself up over a few lapses. I'll report how it all went once I get back and weigh-in.

So, after adding my loss tonight to the total, I now have 35.5 pounds left to lose until it's game on for babymaking. It still sounds like a lot to lose, but for some reason, it's starting to sound a little more within reach. That is, if I can keep all those cakes and fried foods out of my reach!